You were right

But where are you now? I'm at a junction. It's a bad place to be. Rock met hard place and here I am angry. Furious. Rend your heart to pieces to break you down so you'll finally see me. Loved my mom, but never knew me. Never trusted. Now fuck with my life? Don't think so.

And a year later, much better than was ever deserved. We've had a marriage, three deaths, one birth, and soon to be two milestone anniversaries. Almost ten years for my beloved and I...

all things new again

it's appropriate that my last entry was about our wedding nine years ago. now in the shift that has so recently happened, i wonder what will happen as we begin discussion of our renewal this coming year. if it happens. as of now, i believe that we are at an impasse of sorts. we need to reacquaint with one another. no longer children, being settled in feels nice, but very complacent. we may have our HEA, but i think there is much to still be discovered , things mulled over, changes made permanent on both ends

the best time I have ever had licking stamps was when I was finishing our wedding invitations. they were white with a pink rose in full bloom, very appropriate.

I have decided to write down my life in a quiet space that allows me the freedom to be.